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I have become very angry, and that
makes me even angrier because I don't like feeling this way. Some of my anger is shared
by many. I am angry at the methodologies terrorists deploy in the name of their cause.
Killing secretaries and firefighters in the name of religion is cowardly at best,
despicable in every facet. The young mother who kissed her baby goodbye then went to
work in order to feed him did no harm to the terrorists. She did not prevent them from
worshiping their God. I am angry because she died, her baby won't have a mother, and the
world will never be the same.
Perhaps it is complacency on my part,
unwillingness to accept change. Forgive me, but I will not accept the unacceptable. I
am angry because common, decent, generous people the world over will forever have a
certain fear boiling in the pit of their stomach. As far as I can tell, I did not
know anyone killed by the terrorist acts perpetrated against the United
States on September 11th, but they were in all of us. Those terrorist actions, though,
will now put my stepson, my daughter-in-law, and two of my nieces in harm's way. They
all serve in the Air National Guard and will be called to active duty.
There are many little things I am
angry about too. Shoddy and disrespectful customer service for example. I have been
embroiled in a month long battle with a major communications company. They accused me
of fraud, denied service to me, but will not tell me why. I am filing a formal complaint
with the Consumer Protection Division of my state Attorney General's office. I have
been at odds with my local post office for weeks over their seeming inability to
redirect my mail to a new address. I am angry that I must repeat my instructions to
them over and over.
Finally, I am angry that all of this
is putting my wife and I on edge during our divorce settlement negotiations. Yes, I am
getting divorced. I have hinted in recent months at the many major changes that will
occur in my life. I've already discussed the career change I'm about to embark on,
in fact you will see my resume posted here in a couple days. Divorce is next in the
succession of life changes. It hasn't been going well and I am angry it is turning out
this way. It didn't have to be like this. Stress is compounding the difficulty.
I have been quiet for a long time. I
haven't posted much to this journal all summer, especially in the past month. Anger is
generally not in my nature. I do not like the way it makes me feel. I do not like the
way it makes me behave. I am not at my best and that disturbs me. It can lead to
self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret. Fear not for me though, they will not win, anger
will not defeat me. The reasons will become apparent as this saga continues.
